I can see you.

Love,

Tink

P.S. Your car is neither indestructible cloak of armor, nor spaceship, nor Pope mobile.

Yesterday I had just started my climb on the stair-stepper when I noticed a couple who looked like they were in their 80s walking on adjacent treadmills at probably the slowest speed possible. He was dressed in proper slacks and a shirt, she a blouse and slacks with her long white hair held back with a delicate headband. When they were done, the man inched over to his wife’s treadmill and spotted her while she ever so carefully stepped onto the ground. Then he tightly grasped her hand and led her over to her walker and towards the exercise bikes. They held on to each other so tightly, so lovingly that I nearly started sobbing on the stair-stepper. Such a sweet couple of any age is a rare find.

Happy Belated Valentine’s <3!

“You’ll really be the lowest of the low,” my interviewer told me before he mimed kicking me in the shin to demonstrate his point. Then he laughed, as did I, though I really did not see the humor in this gesture. Now it’s time for me to email each of these interviewers and explain how I’d jump at the chance to get paid next to nothing to be treated like dirt in exchange for some good networking and resume building. Isn’t job hunting fun? 

Today’s interview was the first I’ve actually been early for. Without traffic the drive should be about 27 minutes – I left an hour and a half early, which I’m aware makes me sound like an over-eager potential employee who you might be tempted to flick in the dead center of their forehead. But the  first interview I went on proved that normal time estimations just plain do not apply in LA. Yesterday it took me 45 minutes to drive 2 miles downtown because, OH MY GOD, IT WAS RAINING. How are Californians supposed to drive when there are puddles and tiny droplets of water falling menacingly from the sky and onto their vehicles?!?

Most of them deal with it by either:  a) Pulling over to the side of the road, a technique popular with grannies and pop-pops the world over, b) Staying in all together. Why leave? It’s wet outside, or c) Smashing into each other in a panic, further backing up traffic and increasing the hysteria among LA drivers.

I’d like to invite every driver in LA to come to my hometown in the middle of a blizzard where they’ll see the bad ass New Englanders *gasp!* driving through the SNOW AND SLEET atop sheets of ice. They’re just that reckless.

So hopefully one of these fine establishments will eventually choose me to be their next coffee-fetching, ever-smiling, filing, faxing, meeting-scheduling gopher extraordinaire. Until then, I’m looking for a cocktail waitressing gig, because  I’m so damned good at that.

Hi Tootsie:
Welcome home. I hope you had a pleasant and fruitful trip to California. The job market is not as expansive as it was six months ago. I hope you have some good leads in California before you decide to go west.

You know that Horace Greeley said”Go west young man”, he did not mention women.

Love,Papa

I can’t say I wasn’t warned. In his sexist way, Papa was telling it like it is. The economy is in shambles, getting worse, nearing irreparable, or “dat pitz,” as my little sister might put it. From minimum wage workers to 6-figure earners, people are in trouble.  

Still, I was naive enough to think I could just waltz my small self over to this coast, work hard at networking and sailing resumes from office to office and miraculously a job would materialize and life would be good. Now I’ve been here almost a month and after much networking, resume sailing and online searching I don’t currently even have a real lead.

I got a voicemail from a recruiter and subsequently made the mistake of considering this a promising phone call. When I called him back he let me know the company has issued a hiring freeze and he could meet with me if I really really wanted to, but it would be “weeks and weeks and weeks” before any job opened up. 

It looks like I’ve signed up for a few months of ramen noodles, gym obsession, daytime television (Hello, soaps!) and morning margaritas. 

 On a typical morning, The Boyfriend’s alarm sounds at about 7:30AM. He groans, I groan, he silences it. He gets up, takes a shower and proceeds to law school to enjoy his somewhat normal day. I go back to sleep until I have somewhere to be which is usually never. So I sleep until I damn please then get dressed, meaning I throw on a towel with straps and a velcro clasp I’ve deemed my “house dress.” I give Internet job searching, applying and networking a good go and then I proceed to screw around on the Internet for however long I feel. I work out, I shower for no one in particular and try to think of interesting things to cook for dinner.

For someone as lazy as myself, this was all good for the first week or so. But now I’m increasingly bored and need someplace to be, something to do, a job thing. 

I had an interview today at 11am about 29 minutes away from The Boyfriend’s apartment and planned to leave at 10am to allow plenty of time to get there. My morning went as follows:

9am: Take a shower using extra conditioner to make hair super shiny and professional-like. Hang interview outfit in bathroom to de-wrinkle via the magic of shower steamy goodness. 

9:15am: Eat the most important meal of the day, Special K with red berries, while brewing a cup of delicious coffee. 

9:20am: Sip coffee while applying makeup. Sidestep near disaster my noticing I’m about to apply my whore liquid eyeliner and replace it with my subtle charcoal powder eyeliner. Pat myself on the back for being so damn observant. Proceed to dry and straighten hair in smooth professional manner.

9:40am: Put on pre-selected, de-wrinkled interview outfit. Notice a small run in the foot of the only pair of nylons I can find. Twist nylons so that the run is under my foot and only barely poking out of my shoe. Decide no one looks at the backs of my ankles anyways, right? 

9:50am: Retrieve address and directions from email, grab resumes, purse, GPS and head out the door.

10:05am: Enter address into GPS system. Watch in horror as GPS flashes the dead battery symbol and abruptly dies in my hands. Run inside and scramble to look up and print out Google Maps directions. Curse the wretched GPS and sing the praises of the almighty Google.

10:12am: Hit the road. Review the directions while driving and decide I will still, due to some miraculous good luck, be at least 5 minutes early.

10:25am: See the parking lot that is the highway I need to go 20 miles on. Assume that this has to clear up in a mile or so, and that I’ll still arrive 5 minutes early. At least.

10:35am: Miles to go and no sign of traffic clearing.

10:45am: Decide I can still get there exactly on time – that’s still not late.

10:55am: I’m through the traffic but at least ten minutes away. I am definitely late. 

11:05am: I park. I run!

11:06am: Walk the same block ten times looking for the building described in the email. Fail to see it. 

11:09am: Fail to see it some more. Enter the wrong office (without knocking). Embarrass myself in front of strangers. Look insane and scamper out.

11:12am: Reach final destination, panting, sweating and crazy-eyed but pumped with adrenaline and attempting to turn this into energy, enthusiasm and zeal.

Now we’ll see if I get a call back. 

It was  classic beach read: the writing was repetitive, the women were loose and in the end everything wrapped up in a neat little bow. And I’m not embarrassed to say, I enjoyed it. 

I signed off an email chain with some good friends by saying I was going running, to which one responded (quite rightly), “SHE HAS ONLY BEEN IN LA A WEEK AND SHE’S STARTED RUNNING! AND NOT BECAUSE SOMEONE IS CHASING HER! We must stage an intervention.” And I must admit i do feel like a bit of a poser working out as if it were a part of my daily routine next to muscle men and active senior citizens getting their heart rate up. 

The gym is a weird place. People of all ages and shapes come in and sweat together and pretend they’re not checking themselves out in the mirrors that occupy 50% of the walls. And somehow the treadmills are always placed front and center under the TVs so that when I’m running I always feel eyes glued to my ass in between glances at CNN. And then there’s the racing. I can feel my neighbors glancing at my speed, increasing theirs, checking out my miles, my time, my calories and before I know it I feel like we’re neck-and-neck running the Boston Marathon. 

So we’ll see if this new habit of mine persists. I’ll call it my January 13th Resolution.

Stunned and exhausted from all the travel, I found the little port city to be pretty surreal. The landscape was gorgeous – decadent houses and hotels lit up in the hills and brightly colored storefronts dotted the shoreline (I’ll get around to posting some of the pictures we took). Still, after not having seen the Boyfriend since Thanksgiving, I basically wanted to get laid, get a well salted margarita and pass out next to our view of the hills. 

There were slightly limited options for restaurants and nightlife in the off-season, so I perched myself on the side of the bathtub while the Boyfriend brushed his teeth to discuss a little island exploring in search of more options (there were none). Then suddenly it felt like either the bathtub was shaking or I was about to lose my balance and pass out from hunger and fatigue. Then I noticed the towels were sort of shimmying back and forth too. The next morning the news confirmed my suspicion – 8 hours after landing in LA, I felt my first earthquake. So far the West Coast is a whole new world.